Every once in a while, I share a little something personal about myself. Like here and here. A few years ago I wrote a letter to my son as he was turning five, because I really wanted him to know how I felt in that moment. And the only way to do it was by writing a letter, something tangible that he can hold on to and read and enjoy even after I’m gone.
Today it’s my little doll’s turn. She turns THREE tomorrow, and like every other mother I know, I’m going to say the same cliched statement “What?! How did THAT happen?!!” But truly, it’s quite ridiculous how QUICKLY the second child grows up!
So here goes… a letter to my sweet Naomi Jasmine.
My dearest sweetest Naomi, I almost feel speechless that you are turning 3 tomorrow. I kind of want you inside my belly again, and feel those tiny but very strong kicks inside and to see your face for the very first time. The face of the little girl that Daddy and I had waited for forever. But then again, these last three years with you are so very precious. We have formed such a fun little relationship now, I’m so obviously smitten! You are literally my own little “American Doll” because you look like me, act like me and are as tiny as a doll! And guess what? Along with my name as your middle name, you also inherited my OCD-ness!
Goodness, you are way more OCD than I ever was. Your husband and kids are definitely in trouble! You HAVE to have clean hands at all times, you insist on cleaning up and putting your toys away, your socks HAVE to be perfectly stretched and all of your hair clips are organized by color. Phew!But before you came along, we always thought your big brother was a firecracker. Boy, how quickly you changed that! You are the cutest little pink firecracker I have ever come across! Almost nothing scares you, you are somewhat shy around strangers but very confident and strong otherwise. Often, you are a quiet observer reminding me of myself. In fact, sometimes I look at your little round face and I see myself. Not just your facial features but your personality. You are truly mommy’s little girl :) Naomi, we cannot possibly imagine life without you! At one point, I thought I was done having kids. So glad you came along to prove me wrong! You and I are going to be best friends, I just know it. Girly movies, manicures, shopping and lunch dates are just waiting for us! And when we come back home, we will blissfully organize something together because remember our shared OCD-ness?! And can we talk about you in your ballet outfit for a moment? Oh my goodness! Every single pink, girly, ruffle-filled tutu dream of mine comes true when I see you twirling with your ballet teacher, as cute as can be! In little pink ballet slippers that too! Yes, you can bet I’m saving those. Sweet baby girl, I hope and pray that your playful, gentle, confident, girly, sprinkles and chocolate-loving self has the most WONDERFUL third year! I can’t wait to share more fun new experiences with you this year, and grow and learn with you too. You have taught me to slow down, be patient and savor the small but very special moments with you, especially when you’re making endless amounts of plastic dinners and lunches for me in your little pink kitchen :) Love, Mommy